confrontation is a bitch

So, pretty much, disregard the last blog, well the part where i'm in love. I had my heart broken today, pretty much ripped right out of my fucking chest, as if whatever, your feelings mean nothing to me. I havent been able to smile or eat since I was dumped. And the reason i'm sitting here unable to think, is because after he dumped me, he deleted everything. And somehow makes me feel like its all my fault. I dont care, I fucking hate men.

Long Time No Speak

Wow. Its been a long time since i've been here, but sooooo many things to update about! TONS! Well lets see, hmm, an amazing relationship, yes yes yes! i've said that too many times before but this time, hehe, its reallllll, (dont mind me and my ooey gooey talk xD) just super happy to finally have things right where i've wanted them. work! ugh, pretty much has been killing me! And as for people wise, i've been totally ready to just become a total hermit crab, and drag frank along with me of course hehe. Maybe its the fact that I feel like im the only one thats actually mature at work, or either, i'm the only one has a stick up my ass....I highly doubt I have a stick in my ass, I promise! Just can become quite frustrating when youre sitting at a lunch table with a 42 year old male, 19,21 year old females, and me, a 18 year old baby. yup...i'm just the baby at work. But the 42 year old man, pretty much thinking with his balls...well whatever of them he has left, obviously hasnt gotten laid since the ninties...still lives with his mummy. And he's not even taking care of her, how depressing... Just how he talks about women i could strangle the fuck out of him. "Know your role missy", everytime I hear him say that, or better yet, when he says that to me, I feel like taking my right fist and shoving it down his goddamn throat, and then he'll know who to tell to know their role. And his opinions, are old. when something about gay rights pop up on the telly at work in the break room, he squeals out about the "fags", uh okay, yes, their gay, congrats, you can notice things.

OIII!! I cant stand when people think that the world is still in black and white, its quite colorful.

And hardcore christians, whenever you see a rainbow and think 'eww, gay people' remember, your precious god made that rainbow.

Oooh, yes, I was watching the news and miss cali, or whoever the fuck she is, was talking about how her answer had her crown taken away..boo-fucking-hoo. I cant say that I'm frustrated that she spoke her mind, its the fact that she fucked the whole sentence up. She says shes for gay rights..well marriage would happen to be part of those gay rights! If a man and man or a woman and woman cant get married, then neither should a man and woman, thats how i feel about it. Its just like gays have became a whole different race in the world.

And more things to frustrate me, how men stare at women. I'm sorry, but we're not objects, we're fucking human! we have arms, legs, brains! We can think for ourselves! But we also have this thing, you guys might not give much of a damn about it, but its called FEELINGS. Sitting at work today, grumbling about how this girl was crying on a politics station about her crown, A guy turned around at me and said, oh hush, dont be jealous, shes pretty. Oh whoopty-fucking-doo. Shes pretty, and is that all you see on her, and I promise you, almost every guy in that fucking break room turned around and nodded their heads. How can men only see the outside of a female. HOW!? I do understand attraction is part of a relationship in a sort, but not 100% physical! i wish guys could be us for one fucking week, and at best, make it the worst fucking week of the month, maybe they'll appreciate us a little more than what they do.

ughhh!
okay, time for nappypoo time :D