I'm back....again...with a lot to say!

Well, I keep neglecting this page, damn me, damn me well. Well, a quick update, I'm a mum to a one year old boy and pregnant with our second boy, on top of that... I'm Married! Crazy right? The same person who would ramble about how crappy all of her relationships were finally is able to say she's settled down with somebody who is sane and completes me :) He's my best friend and it's simply amazing :D He's deployed now though, he'll be missing the whole birthing, and the first months of his life. We're naming him Aiden Michael, I can't wait to meet him. Our other sons name is Julian, though he really isn't my husbands biological son, he took him in like he was his own, that's how I knew I had an amazing man. He isn't an ignorant child worried about himself, but a man that was willing to build a home for his family. The plus side is, his family actually likes me too, his mum isn't like my ex's; ya know, the racist one who kept referring me as the "n" that her son keeps making mistakes with? Yeah, her, well she's still taking care of her son whom she said was too good for me. HAH! Off that subject though, I'll more than likely be keeping up with this blog being I actually have something more to talk about being I have became a Stay At Home Mother and Wife. Life changes when you're living it the way it should be :) Toodles For Now!

I'm alive again boys and girls.

It's been a while since I've been here. Seriously, a long while. I started another blog, but just couldn't keep up with it. Oh, I've also had a son while gone, he's been another good reason I haven't really touched the internet. Adam and I separated and I've long gone moved on, we had a son together and he left, well, he left when I was preggers and I had him alone. But not really alone, long story there, maybe meant for another time, right? I've also became much more feminine, spending the time I do have that's spare looking at beauty blogs and learning how to take care of myself (I still need to be a hot mum!) Just a lot has changed and if you read this blog often enough, you'll notice it :) Well, let's start off with this past week, HAPPY BELATED FOURTH OF JULY AMERICA! I didn't spent it with Steven, it would have been nice, but it was okay, I spent it with my best friend and my son. We made a rainbow cake, not satisfied with the icing though, so if you see the Duncan Hines create a frosting flavour things, don't bother unless you like your icing running and oozy, it's great for layering cakes, but not for just a basic icing. :/ it kinda ruined the cake to be honest. I began to hate moochers more than anything, you know, that one friend that's your friend when you're about to go out to eat or when they need something. I've somehow gained one and he won't leave me alone about anything. I have Adams stuff in a storage unit and he won't pay any money on it but yet still tells me I should keep it, little does he know is I'm keeping the storage unit until I move in with Steven and everything in there will be gone :) That's also something that's about to change in my life! I'm about to move in with my sweetie, Steven. He has been there for my son and I in so many ways it's crazy, he's been around since I was preggers. He's the most amazing thing to come into my life in all honesty. Fox Run Craftsmen Deluxe Icing Set

today, has been a long fucking day. well the beginning was at least. I spent the majority of it with my boyfriend. Sleeping in his bed.because I was so upset. My bank.account is empty!!!! I'm usually amazing with money! wtf went wrong?! ugh I dunno, but I should be able to make it until Thursday... Hopefully that is. I'm just happy that Adam is an amazing person even though he likes to pretend he's an asshole.... he's actually a sweetie at heart! meh, I'm yapping about crazy things lol. Its five in the morning, I need to get some sleep... but I'm staying awake until adam wakes up for work, I get to stay here alone with his stuffed animal.and lifetime supply of movies. :) yay for being a happy girl!

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I'm glad things are going amazing between Adam and I. In the beginning he was just being a guy, but lately he's actually showing a great deal of affection. His place had a blackout tonight and he held me and told me that everything was going to be okay. :') It was the sweetest thing ever. But tonight when I go over, we're having a movie marathon, and I told him I'd stay the night and when he gets off work Sunday, I'll still be there cuddled with his teddy bear.

But what really made me laugh a good part of the day....

We had our usual 'End of the Work Week' Ihop trip, with out usual waitress Nikki. And she was my waitress when I was with Jared, and we talked about military guys. And I said I'm with a Navy guy now, I'm no longer with the other guy that I always used to come in here with. Her response?

"Huh, you two were together?! I thought he was gay! The way he looked at Justin was insane!"

Omfg. FUCK YES.

So me, my mum, Nikki, and a few other people that met him, all told me they thought he was gay, and all I could do was blush and laugh, because when I was with him people would ask if he was gay and I'd say no...I'm dating him, and I'd just get the yeah right face. But dear goodness, this morning when Nikki just came out and said that I was no good :P

Today when I wake up, Oil Change! Then seeing my main bish, Whitney, and then after that, right back to Adams for Disney movies, tons of cuddling and maybe him cooking me a meal ;)

It's been a while

and I'm sad to say
It's just Shanika, NO longer Shanika and Jared.
At times, I do sadly miss that, because when you've been with the same person for so fucking long, your lives mesh, and when you separated, what do you have left? Nothing. I don't know why he left, I wish he gave me more than just a fucking shurg. He told me that he would need time to tell me, is it that bad? did he think I'd go batshit crazy on him and smash his car? I think he cheated. I'm not crazy, and every girl does this at least for the month after a long term relationship, where we still care about him and wonder if he's doing okay (like a dumbass) I checked his facebook profile (uh, yeah, I was creepin' no lie) and I saw something that pissed me off. The girl that he claimed was a lying cheating whore, and ect. ect. ect. when we were together, is suddenly his new facebook friend.

I should have fucking realized that he was still stuck on her as much as he talked about her being this and that and how she wouldn't do this and I would and how she would do this and I wouldn't. FUCK. I stayed in a relationship that I was being compared in. No wonder things didn't work out :/ I don't really care anymore though. come to find out he was a chubby chaser and was getting upset with me because I started going to the gym... I'm sorry for thinking about my health?

Yup; that's the biggest update I have for you.


Besides I'm seeing someone new.

No. I haven't said I Love You yet.

I learned from the last idiot what saying those three words mean.

I'm obsessed!

With pin-up girls! I ♥ how adorable they are! I think its the eyeliner and the lifestyle! I ♥ the lifestyle. I think I want to fully adopt the fifties lifestyle, I think I could fit into it! If I could only find my Clinique gel eyeliner! Then I would be the happiest girl alive! I really do need to find it because I'm going to use it for my project 10 pan! :)

Ugh, I suck at making goals

I made a goal 2 hours before I broke it, Damn. I need to learn how to control myself, or better yet, control my friend who claims broke, but buys everything that she wants in the walmart that looks nice and looks like something she would want to buy...tsk tsk tsk. But, I woke up SUPER LATE! and instead of putting some makeup on to help my project 10 pan, I'm playing Cafe World on Facebook. It looks rainy, I kinda like that, So yeah, I'll get some makeup on in a few minutes, I don't even wear a lot, Most of my project 10 pan are actually things like chaptick that has been sitting around for a little bit and had been getting on my nerves looking at it. Meh