It's been a while

and I'm sad to say
It's just Shanika, NO longer Shanika and Jared.
At times, I do sadly miss that, because when you've been with the same person for so fucking long, your lives mesh, and when you separated, what do you have left? Nothing. I don't know why he left, I wish he gave me more than just a fucking shurg. He told me that he would need time to tell me, is it that bad? did he think I'd go batshit crazy on him and smash his car? I think he cheated. I'm not crazy, and every girl does this at least for the month after a long term relationship, where we still care about him and wonder if he's doing okay (like a dumbass) I checked his facebook profile (uh, yeah, I was creepin' no lie) and I saw something that pissed me off. The girl that he claimed was a lying cheating whore, and ect. ect. ect. when we were together, is suddenly his new facebook friend.

I should have fucking realized that he was still stuck on her as much as he talked about her being this and that and how she wouldn't do this and I would and how she would do this and I wouldn't. FUCK. I stayed in a relationship that I was being compared in. No wonder things didn't work out :/ I don't really care anymore though. come to find out he was a chubby chaser and was getting upset with me because I started going to the gym... I'm sorry for thinking about my health?

Yup; that's the biggest update I have for you.


Besides I'm seeing someone new.

No. I haven't said I Love You yet.

I learned from the last idiot what saying those three words mean.