outside

its 3 in the morning and outside of my window is this pattering of rain slapping at my window. And i'm sitting here in a dead gaze at my computer screen as i ponder about all of the things that has occured in my life. I'm 18 and expecting a child in december, as if my life could get any worse, the father of my child, cant do the confrontation with me alone, and has to bring his parents along. I also found out that he basically used me until he could get with the girl he has been waiting, as he says 5 years to be with. But whatever. Tommorow, I go over there to have this talk with them and see how they react to everything, my plan though? possibly just keep him out of the babies life, as cruel as it sounds, he cant keep something for more than a month without getting bored with it, ie. girls. which pretty much says that after a month, he wont want to be a father again, congrats girly, thats the kinda guy you got knocked up by. But for most part, everything else is going decent, just that one 'bump' in my life. haha, i mean not a funny deal, but, i have a slight baby bump going on. and no, you cant fucking rub it. The rain has stopped now, but i know it will be back in a few.