Friends, Enemies?

Today, at my best friend, elsie, house. I realized, I have no friends besides her. I mean, i've basically been the rebound friend since tenth grade, and how I know that, somebody told me, and sadly enough, that stupid memory from high school is embedded in the back of my head. But basically, to all of my so-called friends, i'm their backup for when things are like eh, (ex. their boyfriend is out of town, their single and lonely, their boyfriend/girlfriend is not available, they need a rebound friend for the time, or they finally get a boyfriend/girlfriend) then its when their totally allowed to ditch me, so they think.

But the car ride home, which I was stuck in a five mile back up..at one in the morning, wtf, i realised, I kinda hate half the people in my life now, i really fucking do. If it wasnt for Elsie, i prolly would have blown my brains out. She's basically the person thats helping me keep my sanity.

I'm really starting to hate my life, i'll try so hard to try and talk to somebody on the phone, or in person, and its like they dont have time for me, but when their shit is going down the dain, who te fuck do they call, and like a jackass, i'm more than happy to talk to them.

I think I just need to take time and start deleting people off my facebook/myspace friend lists, cos i dont think i really that many friends in my life. I only have one, and shes like my sister.